Grumblings
Aug. 25th, 2016 09:25 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spryng3rd trimester sucks.
I'm tired all the time but when I go to bed I can't sleep. I can't get comfortable even though I have a thousand pillows. And if I eat too close to bedtime, I wake up with food in my throat a few hours later.
My hips are sore from lying on my side but I can't lie on my back without feeling breathless and lightheaded. Sometimes a walk helps sort out my hips, but then I get shooting nerve pain.
It's always too hot. My hands and feet are pulsing with too much heat.
I'm hungry all the time but I don't want anything. Making food is a lot of effort even though I am literally home all day.
I feel bloated and huge. I don't like going out in public because I am so visibly pregnant. I miss being able to ghost around, unnoticed. Also I have very few clothes left that fit but I don't see the point in going and getting any more. Just put me in a muumuu and leave me.
Sometimes I get dizzy just from sitting.
On the other hand, the alternative is none of this and no Lady Jr. No one said pregnancy was easy, but damn if it isn't harder than I expected. No, scratch that - not harder, necessarily, but I thought I'd be able to deal with the discomfort easier, or at least with grace. I thought I could take the bodily changes in stride. Like everything would just happen gradually, but instead it's like BAM suddenly you can't sleep.
I am seriously questioning my intention to work until my due date.
I'm also 100% scared of labor.
And then I think about meeting Lady Jr and it all seems worth it.
I'm tired all the time but when I go to bed I can't sleep. I can't get comfortable even though I have a thousand pillows. And if I eat too close to bedtime, I wake up with food in my throat a few hours later.
My hips are sore from lying on my side but I can't lie on my back without feeling breathless and lightheaded. Sometimes a walk helps sort out my hips, but then I get shooting nerve pain.
It's always too hot. My hands and feet are pulsing with too much heat.
I'm hungry all the time but I don't want anything. Making food is a lot of effort even though I am literally home all day.
I feel bloated and huge. I don't like going out in public because I am so visibly pregnant. I miss being able to ghost around, unnoticed. Also I have very few clothes left that fit but I don't see the point in going and getting any more. Just put me in a muumuu and leave me.
Sometimes I get dizzy just from sitting.
On the other hand, the alternative is none of this and no Lady Jr. No one said pregnancy was easy, but damn if it isn't harder than I expected. No, scratch that - not harder, necessarily, but I thought I'd be able to deal with the discomfort easier, or at least with grace. I thought I could take the bodily changes in stride. Like everything would just happen gradually, but instead it's like BAM suddenly you can't sleep.
I am seriously questioning my intention to work until my due date.
I'm also 100% scared of labor.
And then I think about meeting Lady Jr and it all seems worth it.
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Date: 2016-08-28 11:17 pm (UTC)Avoid Stadol if possible. I had another woman tell me this and I ignored her because I was in pain and wanted to avoid the epidural. They told me it would "take the edge off the pain." What they meant was that it would make me high as a kite and do NOTHING for the pain. I talked to the paintings on the wall. I got up and tried to leave. Part of my memories of my first labor are just smears of color and a tide of pain for every contraction.
I was in labor for while and it was enhanced with Pitocen and it was too much pain for me. I ended up finally, thanks to my mother in law and husband, agreeing to the epidural and it was amazing.
For my second I basically asked for the epidural as soon as I arrived at the hospital and it was glorious. Of course, for my second one I went into labor on my own and was not induced and that was also much better. That said, I have a ridiculously low pain tolerance.
Many women do it without an epidural and love it, so totally plan to avoid if possible. But I highly recommend signing the paperwork giving permission for one before you go into labor, or as soon as you get to the hospital. In case you change your mind.
Lots of love and support to you!!!!