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I've been a bit silent here because I've been a) posting my interesting bits over on my tumblr, which have all been running-related, and b) down. Not depressed. Not quite. But definitely out of sorts. And realizing more and more that perhaps this isn't a situation I can just wish and micromanage my way out of. That if I want to stop feeling like a loser and hating work then maybe I need to do something drastic. Like quit and find a lower paying, but more flexible job.

But that's a bit too drastic, and perhaps not wholly responsible, even if I feel like a bit of a hypocrite when I'm encouraging my friends to not settle for a shitty job but to keep going, keep looking, keep working towards a dream.

So obviously the new job isn't going well. :/ It could get better. I'm holding out for a few weeks, since I've only been down there a total of four days, most of which were training, and it's really the training that makes me want to yank all of my hair out. I just thought, you know, I'd be doing more complicated stuff. More interesting. Instead it's learning the minute intricacies of a fucked up tax system, where everything is micromanaged to the smallest detail, more redundant than an engineer could ever dream of, and so incredibly convoluted. So the answer, when I ask why about any little, random detail, is always the system demands it. Which would be creepy if it weren't so stupid.

Outside of work, things are trucking along. I'm finally writing again and squeezing that into the corners of my life. Like I tell Lady every single time, it's amazing how much better I feel when I'm writing. You think I'd learn.

But I haven't been querying. :/ Need to get back to that.

Running = going well. We did the 7.4 mile run a weekend or two back and omg it was awful but amazing but awful. I wrote more about it on my tumblr. The end result is new shoes! I've been needing them for a while, since the toes are wearing through on my old red ones. Just been putting it off. Like this LJ entry.

I thought the photo was appropriate - Kona has grown so much since I last posed her with shoes. ;)