Stormy Days

[spryng]

Slightly less sick. Actually, a bit less sick. Just my head is all full of cotton, but Lady's got the worst of it now.

I've been filled with the sudden and inexplicable need (again) to pin down my life and where I want to go with it. I suppose it's the knowledge that I will likely be without a job again in ten months. But then again, it could just be that I know I don't want to be stuck doing this. Perhaps it was another of mom's off comments about my brief stint at Target, as if that were the lowest of the low. So even the infinitesimal chance that I may be forced back into retail and a minimum wage job at the end of this is somewhat unsettling, even moreso than having to potentially go on unemployment.

I'm tired of not having a plan, but when I sit down to make one, I can't. I end up with empty hands and a wish that I could write, even as I sit here with an empty page. A wish that I had more business savvy, so I could spruce up my photo business and get it rolling again. There was that oh-so-brief moment back in October when it was moving, and now it's sickly and covered in dust. I start things and I don't finish them, and I hate that about me.

Anyway, to help myself out of this hole, I've been brainstorming and listing possibilities for post-this job. I even went and trolled craigslist, just for ideas. But I found an internship, unpaid, at a literary agency. And I let myself get much, much too excited.

So I shot off an email. Why the hell not? They're looking for a student or someone with a degree that would be applicable, and I'm neither, but omg agency. I didn't expect anything back, after all those months on craigslist with nary a peep. But I got one, and they want to meet. Eek! I know it doesn't mean anything, aside from a lack of interest from any other internship seekers, but this could pan into something awesome. If nothing else, the very least I could get out of it is knowledge on how agencies work.

Sooo... yeah. We'll see.

Comments

[thezhen.livejournal.com]

You know what's totally awesome about people who are writers AND photographers? They have a one-up in the world of freelancing, because they can write articles AND provide original photography to accompany their work. That's a big deal (ask me how I wrote for two local FL papers for a couple a years--it's because I could write and was willing to take my own photos).

My suggestions: magazines; lit journals; local newspapers; websites (like suite101.com). Just check the new Writer's Market, or nab a recent copy of Writer's Digest.

Stick to topics you know: photography, languages, sci-fi/cyber-punk, alternative lifestyle, Arizona-Florida-Washington, baking cute cupcakes--I'm sure there's loads more, and I promise you there is a magazine for everyone of those things you know about.

Remember, writing is about communicating and sharing what you know with other people (and photos illustrate your ideas). Got ten-months left in this job? Start making queries now (and do it often) and you may find that at the end of all this, you can live off your writing.

Good luck with the internship meeting! :)

[pennywhistle.livejournal.com]

I hope the internship meeting goes well!!