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Feb. 12th, 2026 06:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spryngI should be at Crossfit, but the fatigue has risen up and consumed me this week. I could feel it approaching on Monday, and Tuesday it hit me like a truck. I'm trying to just ride it out and allow myself to rest, although some anxiety seems to be wound up in it. I just keep reminding myself I've been here before and it was better for so long, and I know what to do to make it better again. That I'd noticed my food choices slipping since November and even remarked to Dr Lady last week that I wasn't eating much meat again.
It feels silly that apparently I need meat to avoid this fatigue, but I haven't been able to get enough iron/B12 on a vegetarian-adjacent diet, even with supplements. Blrgh. But I also need my energy back; I truly felt like my old self for a while there. I was PRing lifts and being a boss all summer, but I feel like I've been barely keeping up since fall.
Definitely 90% of the blame can be placed on the stress in December. I thought I'd got out of that relatively unscathed, but I guess I'm finally paying for it. I did try to take January easy, and I've been alcohol-free for five weeks (hoorah), as well as consistently exercising. I need to prioritize getting outside again and there are a few other things I could dial in.
Unfortunately, it looks like there might be another crunch coming up at work in March. I've already warned them I'm not working outside of hours and this crunch is entirely because other people don't value our work ("we want training on this process, but we haven't finalized this process, and we're launching in May no matter what" r-e-a-l-l-y). It doesn't help that boss-boss keeps telling us to just "use AI." Ma'am, I don't think that's going to help when folks still don't know what they want their users to do.
All the more reason I got to get hold of this fatigue wave while I can. I wish there was a simpler solution; I feel like the older I get, the less forgiving my body is. I also feel like I'm not old enough to feel this way, lol. My body should not hurt like this, I should not be this damn tired.
But it does and I am, so here we go.
It feels silly that apparently I need meat to avoid this fatigue, but I haven't been able to get enough iron/B12 on a vegetarian-adjacent diet, even with supplements. Blrgh. But I also need my energy back; I truly felt like my old self for a while there. I was PRing lifts and being a boss all summer, but I feel like I've been barely keeping up since fall.
Definitely 90% of the blame can be placed on the stress in December. I thought I'd got out of that relatively unscathed, but I guess I'm finally paying for it. I did try to take January easy, and I've been alcohol-free for five weeks (hoorah), as well as consistently exercising. I need to prioritize getting outside again and there are a few other things I could dial in.
Unfortunately, it looks like there might be another crunch coming up at work in March. I've already warned them I'm not working outside of hours and this crunch is entirely because other people don't value our work ("we want training on this process, but we haven't finalized this process, and we're launching in May no matter what" r-e-a-l-l-y). It doesn't help that boss-boss keeps telling us to just "use AI." Ma'am, I don't think that's going to help when folks still don't know what they want their users to do.
All the more reason I got to get hold of this fatigue wave while I can. I wish there was a simpler solution; I feel like the older I get, the less forgiving my body is. I also feel like I'm not old enough to feel this way, lol. My body should not hurt like this, I should not be this damn tired.
But it does and I am, so here we go.
