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Jul. 7th, 2024 08:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spryngI'm in a fatigue spell and it sucks. Usually they only last a day, but this one is ending its day three. I was able to do a bit yesterday despite my eyes trying to close half the time but it hit me hard today.
I cried in front of the kids because I was so frustrated and tired, and it's either I cry or I yell. I hate that I have a temper when I feel like shit, and I've definitely made progress toward catching myself before I burst, but gosh darn, all that progress goes out the window when I can barely function and the kids are just constantly at each others' throats.
I just wish I knew why I get these spells. Food tracking was supposed to give me some clue, but I ate better* (*hitting goals for fiber, iron, protein, b12, etc) than I have in weeks and it still hit me. And my theory as to it being menstrual cycle-related has gone out the window, because this one hit at an entirely different time of that.
It's not the sleep -- I've had far less and been fine. It's not the kids -- this never happened with CG. I can't be a hundred percent sure this never happened before I had COVID two years ago, but it sure as hell has been pretty regular since.
I just have no idea and it frankly scares me. Am I just going to always have 2-3 days every month or two that I'm non-functional? I have honestly no hope that going to a doctor would help. None of my labs have ever come back abnormal. I just have to adapt and hope that it doesn't get worse.
I cried in front of the kids because I was so frustrated and tired, and it's either I cry or I yell. I hate that I have a temper when I feel like shit, and I've definitely made progress toward catching myself before I burst, but gosh darn, all that progress goes out the window when I can barely function and the kids are just constantly at each others' throats.
I just wish I knew why I get these spells. Food tracking was supposed to give me some clue, but I ate better* (*hitting goals for fiber, iron, protein, b12, etc) than I have in weeks and it still hit me. And my theory as to it being menstrual cycle-related has gone out the window, because this one hit at an entirely different time of that.
It's not the sleep -- I've had far less and been fine. It's not the kids -- this never happened with CG. I can't be a hundred percent sure this never happened before I had COVID two years ago, but it sure as hell has been pretty regular since.
I just have no idea and it frankly scares me. Am I just going to always have 2-3 days every month or two that I'm non-functional? I have honestly no hope that going to a doctor would help. None of my labs have ever come back abnormal. I just have to adapt and hope that it doesn't get worse.
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Date: 2024-07-09 09:16 pm (UTC)