spryng | Thoughts on a Friday Morning

- It's my last day at work before I start maternity leave. I'll be 40 weeks on Monday, so I figured that was a good a time as any to take off. Of course right now I feel 100% fine and like I'll be pregnant forever, so I might as well go into work. We'll see how I feel in a few days.

- Lady has had an ingrown toenail for the last two months. She finally got in to see a foot doc yesterday, who took one look at it and was like, hey - our next appointment canceled. Want to do minor foot surgery now?

So she did and now hopefully all she has to do to have the ability to walk like a normal person again (for the first time in over a year) is heal. Of course, cutting off and chemically burning a portion of toe/toenail is going to take a few days to heal from and right now she's in pain, unable to stand/walk for more than a few minutes, and probably shouldn't be driving. We're a bit of a pair.

- I put up happy lights in my office and it's made 100% of a difference.

- It's been 80 here the last few days. I was promised cold and snow and frost. Come on, weather - it's October! In Michigan! Can we stop with the warm weather already? I just want to shove my face into a snowbank.

- I'm registered to vote in Michigan. Woo! I looked up the ballot and tried to find info on the local issues. I figured the local newspaper would have info. Ahahaha - nope. All they have are articles about Orangey McOrangeFace. Wtf. I also tried google. Nada. I'm both surprised and not at all surprised.

- I miss having friends. It's been incredibly lonely here. That coupled with being stuck home all day is enough to bring the depression creeping back. I don't really know what to do about it, though. Work goes until 7pm and I can't take the car every day. I also haven't been able to bike because it just physically hurts. I'm really hoping that after baby, enough will change that I'll be able to go out and make friends. At least I'll be able to walk further than a mile, bike to other places, and start Crossfit again. I really don't like being this isolated. :<

- On the one hand, I'm a little afraid of the pain of labor and the sudden, crushing responsibility of caring for a newborn. On the other hand, I am 100% done being so physically limited. I can just barely tie my own shoes and get out of bed, but everything takes three times as much effort as it once did. As I mentioned above, I can barely walk a mile before the pain becomes too much. I can still lift a little, but even simple movements leave me breathless. And forget about running. God, I want to run so badly. The weather has been perfect.

I don't think I fully realized how much I'd made being active part of my identity in the past few years until I was forced to take it slow. I miss the rush of a hard workout and the victory of a heavy lift and the aching soreness of muscles pushed just far enough.

Soon, soon, if not soon enough.