Grumblings
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spryng3rd trimester sucks.
I'm tired all the time but when I go to bed I can't sleep. I can't get comfortable even though I have a thousand pillows. And if I eat too close to bedtime, I wake up with food in my throat a few hours later.
My hips are sore from lying on my side but I can't lie on my back without feeling breathless and lightheaded. Sometimes a walk helps sort out my hips, but then I get shooting nerve pain.
It's always too hot. My hands and feet are pulsing with too much heat.
I'm hungry all the time but I don't want anything. Making food is a lot of effort even though I am literally home all day.
I feel bloated and huge. I don't like going out in public because I am so visibly pregnant. I miss being able to ghost around, unnoticed. Also I have very few clothes left that fit but I don't see the point in going and getting any more. Just put me in a muumuu and leave me.
Sometimes I get dizzy just from sitting.
On the other hand, the alternative is none of this and no Lady Jr. No one said pregnancy was easy, but damn if it isn't harder than I expected. No, scratch that - not harder, necessarily, but I thought I'd be able to deal with the discomfort easier, or at least with grace. I thought I could take the bodily changes in stride. Like everything would just happen gradually, but instead it's like BAM suddenly you can't sleep.
I am seriously questioning my intention to work until my due date.
I'm also 100% scared of labor.
And then I think about meeting Lady Jr and it all seems worth it.
I'm tired all the time but when I go to bed I can't sleep. I can't get comfortable even though I have a thousand pillows. And if I eat too close to bedtime, I wake up with food in my throat a few hours later.
My hips are sore from lying on my side but I can't lie on my back without feeling breathless and lightheaded. Sometimes a walk helps sort out my hips, but then I get shooting nerve pain.
It's always too hot. My hands and feet are pulsing with too much heat.
I'm hungry all the time but I don't want anything. Making food is a lot of effort even though I am literally home all day.
I feel bloated and huge. I don't like going out in public because I am so visibly pregnant. I miss being able to ghost around, unnoticed. Also I have very few clothes left that fit but I don't see the point in going and getting any more. Just put me in a muumuu and leave me.
Sometimes I get dizzy just from sitting.
On the other hand, the alternative is none of this and no Lady Jr. No one said pregnancy was easy, but damn if it isn't harder than I expected. No, scratch that - not harder, necessarily, but I thought I'd be able to deal with the discomfort easier, or at least with grace. I thought I could take the bodily changes in stride. Like everything would just happen gradually, but instead it's like BAM suddenly you can't sleep.
I am seriously questioning my intention to work until my due date.
I'm also 100% scared of labor.
And then I think about meeting Lady Jr and it all seems worth it.
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Date: 2016-08-25 10:09 pm (UTC)I did work until the day of (taught lessons the same day I went into labor both times). I don't know if my baseline fitness helped, especially with the horses encouraging a strong core, but I also used a support band, which I think really helped. Kelhan did like to sit on my sciatic, which sucked, especially walking along and having a leg pretty much give out.
Have you tried napping in a reclined position? So you can be on your back, but not compressing important blood vessels and such that laying flat on your back does.
Know what you want from your birthing experience. I did the boys without pain medication because I really don't like the idea of epidurals (being poked by needles is probably my least favorite thing) and believe the drawbacks outweigh the benefits. Child #2 wore me out more than Child #1, but he also came at 5am instead of a respectable 10pm. Things did seem to heal up quicker the second time around. I took comfort that billions of women before me have done this and done just fine.
The end is near, good luck!
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Date: 2016-08-28 11:40 am (UTC)Even a reclined position can make me dizzy. I have to be either straight upright or lying on my side. She just seems to sit funny.
I try to keep telling myself that millennia of women have done this, that I can get an epidural if I really, really want to, but I think I'll just be weary until I know how I deal with that particular pain. I felt the same way about getting a tattoo.
Thanks!
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Date: 2016-08-29 09:57 pm (UTC)As another noted above the Pitocen/oxytocin that is used to hurry things along does make labor more intense. This time around I'll take a pass on that and see how it goes. Both times it was only really bad the last 45 minutes. Tristan would have been better had he not insisted his fist be next to his face (thank heavens he had a small head!) and Kelhan did not want to wait and was out in one or two active pushes.
I do have a high pain tolerance (except for when it comes to needles ...) and I believe once you have the epidural you're stuck in one position. You don't want to wait too long, though as there is a point where they can no longer administer it if you change your mind. All things to discuss with your doctor.