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This year is almost over, thank god. I'll have a four day weekend soon and no family obligations and it's going to be wonderful. Because of all the uncertainty of France and then the new job, we decided to stay home this Christmas and no one is coming out to visit us. Which is absolutely fine. It's been nice so far focusing on the renewal aspect of the holiday season instead of just on presents and travel logistics.

Lady and I have been lighting a candle each week as we approach the solstice and talking about joy and hope and stuff. It's an appropriate time not just because of the soon-to-be-lengthening days, but also because we're just now feeling hopeful again about our TTC chances.

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Honestly, at this point, I'm going to be over the moon if we just have a successful try. Which it's looking like we might!! They had me on letrozole last week (inhibits estrogen so your body produces more FSH which is what - eventually - makes you ovulate) and I went in yesterday to see if it had worked. I had absolutely no side effects and was convinced the letrozole hadn't worked and we'd be looking at a possible Christmas day ovulation date which would mean skipping this cycle which would have been a bummer, but not surprising, because so far anything that can go wrong in this process, has -

And then the ultrasound wand showed that I was going to ovulate the next day (aka today) and before I knew it, I was set up with an appointment time and stabbed in the stomach with a needle. What!

I might have finally breathed then. I might have spent the rest of the day absolutely happy because for once, this might happen. It says a lot about these last two years that I am going to be so relieved if nothing else comes up to thwart this cycle.

...of course, until the appt this morning, I'm going to be thinking of all the ways this could still go tit's up.

Timing couldn't be better, though: the two week wait will fall over Christmas and New Year's, which lends itself to ample distractions. Which I will need. Because the best part!! about the stabbing they gave me (some call it a shot, but really they just stabbed me) is that it contained HCG which is the pregnancy hormone which has side effects that are basically everything you would expect if this worked.

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So I need to keep extra busy over the holidays. Which I can do because now!! the above means we can leave town around Christmas instead of hanging around, just in case. I'm trying to talk Lady into going to Flagstaff or Prescott or somewhere with snow for a night or two. We shall see. If we do, I will take pics for sure.

But we also need to go through our shit and start cleaning out closets...