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Things I am not doing well with: life.
This is the second time in three weeks that I've gone home early because I can't stop crying at work.
This is ridiculous.
If anybody has a secret depression cure they've been hoarding, I will give you cupcakes and marshmallows to share it with me now.
This is stupid.
I am done with this depression. Hear that, brain? I'm done now. I'm going to go lie down, take a nap, and when I wake up I better damn well appreciate the fucking world again.

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[semaj-moonlight.livejournal.com]

Surround yourself with people who care. Do things that you know will make you happy. Find your joy. Don't let it beat you. Try something new. Talk it out. Write it out. Cry it out.Make a plan.

It's all so easier said than done .

A note on TTC have you had your thyroid checked? For me I think what helped was taking Selenium-- that's what I tell myself anyways .

I wish I had the right answers. You have a beautiful life that others would be lucky to have. Remember that. :)

[taz-39.livejournal.com]

I wish I had the answer that's perfect for you.

I don't know you well and don't know what you've already tried, so if anything I say is redundant or hurtful, I apologize. These are just things that have sort of helped me in the past year with panic/depression/anxiety.

- If you can, find a person who can and will sympathize with you...someone who understands completely. Preferably a person who is willing to spend time talking with you, doing some everyday things with you, or just meeting with you once a week for lunch. Ideally someone who is willing to hug you frequently. Positive physical contact with genuine feeling behind it has been such a help to me, and so I recommend it to you as well. You might need more of it. A friend or companion who will do these things for you is a powerful weapon in your fight.

- If you feel depressed/overwhelmed/anxiety/panic in a certain place or while doing a certain thing, such as at work, DON'T LEAVE. Don't surrender to those feelings. Don't feed the monster by giving it what it wants. Let those sh*tty feelings wash over you, at work, at the grocery, wherever you are when they hit. Let the panic attack or depression happen...don't try to stop it, because you can't right now, you've just got to face it and accept that you're having these awful feelings, and that it's OK and you're going to be OK. Even if you feel like you're going to die or freak out in front of your coworkers, let it happen. Just don't undermine yourself by leaving. Keep a box of Kleenex at the desk, a bit of candy, a stress ball, a comfort blanket, whatever will help you ride out the attack for even just a bit longer. Remind yourself that it WON'T always be like this. It will pass in time, whether that's tomorrow or a year from now. It WILL get better.

- Be patient and gentle with yourself mentally. Don't let your inner voice put you down with stuff like "I'm fat", "I'm so lazy", or "Nothing I do means anything", etc. That voice is trying to keep you in a miserable state. Change that voice...make it a cheerleader for you. The truth is that you're not fat or lazy. And even the little things that you do every day...breathing deeply, looking at all the good and bad things in the world, smiling at someone even if you don't feel like it...those little things have value. Take that mental pressure off yourself. You don't always have to be "doing something", you don't have to be "productive". Maybe right now you feel like you're sitting still, or are confused about which direction to move in, or just don't feel motivated at all. All of that is OK. None of that makes you lazy or useless. It's just time for you to stand still, as uncomfortable as it may be, until you find a direction you'd like to try.

It's a personal struggle and I can't tell you how to find your own way out. But if I could hug you and change everything, I would.
*HUG*