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Apr. 30th, 2014 05:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spryngI've had a really confusing past few days, which have tied into an even more confusing past few weeks. Ever since we started this TTC process my body has decided it was time to stop being predictable and become wonky. Everything is completely messed up, to the point where I'm actually considering going to a doctor. Which is making me horribly anxious, because I have had very, very few positive experiences with doctors. :/
But the responsible thing is to go, even though they'll tell me nothing is wrong and laugh at me and charge me a shit ton.
So I've been a bit down these last few days, esp because it seemed like my body was finally going to start making sense. But, no. And on top of that my lips have broken out into a rash for no apparent reason and it's taking the rest of my willpower not to itch them.
I'm not going to hit my May 1st deadline with the edits because of all this. Well, because I can't get my act together, really. I've been writing in the nooks and crannies of my day during the week, but on the weekends when I really need to buckle down, I just... haven't.
And the parents are going to be in town tomorrow and Grand Canyon is this weekend and I just need a break, maybe a big giant STOP button.
But the responsible thing is to go, even though they'll tell me nothing is wrong and laugh at me and charge me a shit ton.
So I've been a bit down these last few days, esp because it seemed like my body was finally going to start making sense. But, no. And on top of that my lips have broken out into a rash for no apparent reason and it's taking the rest of my willpower not to itch them.
I'm not going to hit my May 1st deadline with the edits because of all this. Well, because I can't get my act together, really. I've been writing in the nooks and crannies of my day during the week, but on the weekends when I really need to buckle down, I just... haven't.
And the parents are going to be in town tomorrow and Grand Canyon is this weekend and I just need a break, maybe a big giant STOP button.
