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Winter Solstice
Dec. 21st, 2024 02:12 pmI signed my time card and turned off my work computer. I didn't finish my project, but that's that until the New Year, pretty much. I tried despite being sick af and having a toddler home all week, but even god can't perform miracles when she can't breathe.
Today is the winter solstice and today I am practicing letting go and starting anew. I've got just shy of two weeks to reflect and plan for the new year, to churn through and process what 2024 was and prepare for 2025.
And... it's really hard not to feel defeated. It's been several years now where things are supposed to be different, I'm supposed to make a triumphant return, and instead I just feel like I've fallen further behind. A complete lack of any sense of accomplishment, only a yawning hole of what I'm missing. IDK, I'm also writing this 3 weeks into a cold when it's been hard to do much and I haven't even exercised in a week, so I'm already in a pessimistic frame of mind.
Maybe I should focus on what I have accomplished this year?
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I got interrupted by Toddler. He was up at 6.30am for the first time since he got sick, so even though I'd have liked more time to myself, I'm also glad he's feeling better. Gives me hope that I'll be feeling better soon, too.
Today is the winter solstice and today I am practicing letting go and starting anew. I've got just shy of two weeks to reflect and plan for the new year, to churn through and process what 2024 was and prepare for 2025.
And... it's really hard not to feel defeated. It's been several years now where things are supposed to be different, I'm supposed to make a triumphant return, and instead I just feel like I've fallen further behind. A complete lack of any sense of accomplishment, only a yawning hole of what I'm missing. IDK, I'm also writing this 3 weeks into a cold when it's been hard to do much and I haven't even exercised in a week, so I'm already in a pessimistic frame of mind.
Maybe I should focus on what I have accomplished this year?
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I got interrupted by Toddler. He was up at 6.30am for the first time since he got sick, so even though I'd have liked more time to myself, I'm also glad he's feeling better. Gives me hope that I'll be feeling better soon, too.
