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- I think I am actually, legitimately depressed. It's been four weeks now and I keep just clambering out, only to slide right back in. This is the first time I've been depressed in years and I'm a bit put off by it. I don't really know what to do aside from try not to cry at work and maybe try taking 5-HTP again. I don't want to do anything but sleep and maybe eat cake and definitely sleep some more.
- But I'm pushing myself to stay present and go outside and keep writing because I know otherwise it will only get worse. Yay, experience?
- I want to take time off from work and just not be there for a while, but our sick time system is stupid so the long story short is: I can't.
- We went to see Fall Out Boy in Phoenix on Friday and it was, maybe not amazing, but refreshing. They don't sound nearly as good in concert and the lead singer has an anti-stage presence, but it was still good to be around all that energy, buoyed up by a ton of people just excited about the music as you are.
- I am at 70k in this WIP with a projected 20k to go. I am going to finish this by September if it kills me. Then I am going to rewrite the hell out of it. It will need a lot of work, but I'm still oh-so-confident that this will be my most marketable story yet. Maybe not best, but definitely most likely to sell.
- Cats are catting. Chickens are chickening. I might be able to eat duck eggs - I tried some Sunday and Monday and so far, no flare-ups. It can take a week to show, though, so I'll be keeping a close eye out.
- I feel fat and weak and tired and mostly useless. I am trying to remind myself that most of these feelings are in my head, but it's hard.
- Almost two weeks until I turn 28.
- But I'm pushing myself to stay present and go outside and keep writing because I know otherwise it will only get worse. Yay, experience?
- I want to take time off from work and just not be there for a while, but our sick time system is stupid so the long story short is: I can't.
- We went to see Fall Out Boy in Phoenix on Friday and it was, maybe not amazing, but refreshing. They don't sound nearly as good in concert and the lead singer has an anti-stage presence, but it was still good to be around all that energy, buoyed up by a ton of people just excited about the music as you are.
- I am at 70k in this WIP with a projected 20k to go. I am going to finish this by September if it kills me. Then I am going to rewrite the hell out of it. It will need a lot of work, but I'm still oh-so-confident that this will be my most marketable story yet. Maybe not best, but definitely most likely to sell.
- Cats are catting. Chickens are chickening. I might be able to eat duck eggs - I tried some Sunday and Monday and so far, no flare-ups. It can take a week to show, though, so I'll be keeping a close eye out.
- I feel fat and weak and tired and mostly useless. I am trying to remind myself that most of these feelings are in my head, but it's hard.
- Almost two weeks until I turn 28.
