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Thoughts on a Saturday Morning
Nov. 17th, 2018 05:22 amOkay. That's it. Saturday mornings are going to be for journaling. I need to come back to this, and not just for my mental health. My mind has become a sieve and I keep trying to think back on the years since Lady Jr hit us and too much is slipping from my grasp.
Like how the fuck did I write a book with a newborn. I know I did it if only because people have talked about it and left reviews and stuff, but man. Coulda fooled me, because apparently writing a book with a toddler is 10x harder.
I thought the sleep dep would be the biggest problem, but instead it seems to be that my brain has just shut down. I used to idly noodle on plot throughout the day and have something to write down by the time I reached a keyboard, but now I get to the keyboard and there's just... nothing. It's like the toddler has stolen all of my available brainwidth and there's nothing leftover for background processing.
But Lady Jr, oh Lady Jr. She is worth all the brainwidth. We can talk to her now like she'll understand us, and for the most part, she does. She's also got the most amazing side-eye and the sly grin she gets when she's about to do something she thinks she shouldn't is hilarious.
She can open the fridge which has been a problem because she just goes over and stands there like a teenager.
Her current favorite things:
- Pushing the stroller
- Attempting to put on pants. Over her pants.
- Putting all her babies to bed (i.e. stuffed animals). The living room occasionally looks like a morgue with a bunch of tiny bodies covered in tiny blankets.
- Saying "no."
- Pointing at things as we name them.
- Paging through books.
- Dancing.
- Bubbles.
- Stacking cans of fish.
- DOGGIES
- Cheese
- "Outside?"
- Putting on mommies' shoes.
- Pool noodles.
My current favorite things:
- Quiet early mornings
- Running in the snow
- All the books I've gotten to read that don't come out until next year (my little virgo heart is so happy to pre-complete things)
- Fleece-lined leggings (seriously how did I live before these)
- Coffee
- Heated mattress pads
Like how the fuck did I write a book with a newborn. I know I did it if only because people have talked about it and left reviews and stuff, but man. Coulda fooled me, because apparently writing a book with a toddler is 10x harder.
I thought the sleep dep would be the biggest problem, but instead it seems to be that my brain has just shut down. I used to idly noodle on plot throughout the day and have something to write down by the time I reached a keyboard, but now I get to the keyboard and there's just... nothing. It's like the toddler has stolen all of my available brainwidth and there's nothing leftover for background processing.
But Lady Jr, oh Lady Jr. She is worth all the brainwidth. We can talk to her now like she'll understand us, and for the most part, she does. She's also got the most amazing side-eye and the sly grin she gets when she's about to do something she thinks she shouldn't is hilarious.
She can open the fridge which has been a problem because she just goes over and stands there like a teenager.
Her current favorite things:
- Pushing the stroller
- Attempting to put on pants. Over her pants.
- Putting all her babies to bed (i.e. stuffed animals). The living room occasionally looks like a morgue with a bunch of tiny bodies covered in tiny blankets.
- Saying "no."
- Pointing at things as we name them.
- Paging through books.
- Dancing.
- Bubbles.
- Stacking cans of fish.
- DOGGIES
- Cheese
- "Outside?"
- Putting on mommies' shoes.
- Pool noodles.
My current favorite things:
- Quiet early mornings
- Running in the snow
- All the books I've gotten to read that don't come out until next year (my little virgo heart is so happy to pre-complete things)
- Fleece-lined leggings (seriously how did I live before these)
- Coffee
- Heated mattress pads
