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Thoughts on a Tuesday Morning
Sep. 27th, 2016 10:07 amFirst off: still pregnant. 38 weeks as of yesterday. As of Oct 1st I will be actively encouraging Lady Jr to evict herself, but until then let's just not.
Second off: Somehow I survived the Week from Crunchtime Hell at work. We got the two projects out the door ahead of schedule and I've been in recovery mode ever since. We still have revisions this week, but those haven't come in yet and shouldn't take too much time.
I kind of realized that I really like this job last week. It's the first job I've had where I'm encouraged to go off on my own and do things and then come back and show them off. I get a lot of room to be creative and take risks, which can be a little terrifying sometimes, but for the most part I've gotten really good feedback. It can be stressful for sure, but at least at the end of the day I often feel like I've accomplished something.
Third off: I am 900% looking forward to time off and maybe hoping Lady Jr will come a bit early so I can take off that much sooner. Right now, still planning on working until my due date, but I'm also dialing it down and taking a lot more breaks.
Fourth off: My anxiety seems to be increasing. We are so close and yet so many terrible things could still happen. I'm still afraid to assume everything will be all right. And I have to resist the urge to shake anyone else who assumes so, because even though I know jinxing isn't a thing, it's hard not to hedge and worry.
Fifth off: IT IS FINALLY AUTUMN. It is windy and fifty degrees and gorgeous and for the first time since July, my hands are not on fire. I am also still wearing short sleeves.
Sixth off: Vague-journaling is still cool, right? Well I got really good news last week, but it's been weird because I have zero emotional energy so I haven't been excited about it. Yet this is probably a good thing because it's going to be a few more weeks before I find out if that news is shareable (i.e. best news vs aw dammit oh well news) so at least I won't be constantly thinking about it. I fully expect to find out one way or another at the most inopportune time, so if you never hear anything again about this, then it didn't pan out.
Seventh off: Child care is atrociously expensive and now I 100% understand why so many women never go back to work. What's the point when it costs as much to put your kid up as you make? I mean, thankfully, I make a little more than that, but wow.
Second off: Somehow I survived the Week from Crunchtime Hell at work. We got the two projects out the door ahead of schedule and I've been in recovery mode ever since. We still have revisions this week, but those haven't come in yet and shouldn't take too much time.
I kind of realized that I really like this job last week. It's the first job I've had where I'm encouraged to go off on my own and do things and then come back and show them off. I get a lot of room to be creative and take risks, which can be a little terrifying sometimes, but for the most part I've gotten really good feedback. It can be stressful for sure, but at least at the end of the day I often feel like I've accomplished something.
Third off: I am 900% looking forward to time off and maybe hoping Lady Jr will come a bit early so I can take off that much sooner. Right now, still planning on working until my due date, but I'm also dialing it down and taking a lot more breaks.
Fourth off: My anxiety seems to be increasing. We are so close and yet so many terrible things could still happen. I'm still afraid to assume everything will be all right. And I have to resist the urge to shake anyone else who assumes so, because even though I know jinxing isn't a thing, it's hard not to hedge and worry.
Fifth off: IT IS FINALLY AUTUMN. It is windy and fifty degrees and gorgeous and for the first time since July, my hands are not on fire. I am also still wearing short sleeves.
Sixth off: Vague-journaling is still cool, right? Well I got really good news last week, but it's been weird because I have zero emotional energy so I haven't been excited about it. Yet this is probably a good thing because it's going to be a few more weeks before I find out if that news is shareable (i.e. best news vs aw dammit oh well news) so at least I won't be constantly thinking about it. I fully expect to find out one way or another at the most inopportune time, so if you never hear anything again about this, then it didn't pan out.
Seventh off: Child care is atrociously expensive and now I 100% understand why so many women never go back to work. What's the point when it costs as much to put your kid up as you make? I mean, thankfully, I make a little more than that, but wow.
