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Feb. 8th, 2014 05:59 amAfter all the excitement about Lady's oral exam last Wednesday (which she passed!!), I kind of forgot about the wedding I'd agreed to shoot this weekend. At least, up until yesterday when the couple showed me the church and where they'd like shots. Then I spent all last night in dreams where I broke my camera, broke my lens, got lost, got flustered, etc etc. I think my brain was trying to shuck all the worst-case scenarios in one go. I've never had such a single-minded night of dreaming. O.o
I'm nervous, but I'll be fine. It's also a DITL day, which I think will help to remind me to get all the detail shots. :) I'm looking through my old fave wedding blogs, too, since it feels like forever that I had my head in the wedding biz. God, and I remember being so into it, too. All the details and the cake and the excitement. It's probably good I moved on.
The wedding also reminded me that I needed to get my butt in gear re: our own legalness. I finally contacted a MN judge yesterday and not only is she up for solemnizing, but she plays in an LGBT orchestra. *swoon* Hoorah! I had no idea because the list of MN judges has no extra info, so it was all luck. Now I am getting a little excited about actually getting married. Maybe I should have waited to dye my dress? ...nah.
Diet-wise, I'm still mostly strict AIP. Yolks didn't work out, so I'm onto seed spices next. I had a coconut chai yesterday morning, then a burger with cumin and mustard. I might have died a little when I had the mustard - it's so flavorful. Holy shit. Mustard is the food of the gods. I never knew. I will never doubt or underestimate mustard again.
So far, no problems with seed spices. So they're def not an acute thing, like the yolks were. They still could be cumulative, so I'll hold off on judgment until next Friday. Still: excited! Mustard!!!
Other AIP-ness: still losing weight. Slowly, but it's happening. I knew the first few pounds would be water bloat from all the sugar over Christmas. But now it's worrying me, since I feel like I'm eating enough and it's definitely not intentional. At the same time, I have to fight the mental knee jerk reaction that this a good thing, it's always good to lose weight, right? I don't think I'll ever be rid of that. But no, it's not. I need a certain percentage of fat to make enough estrogen and be healthy. While I don't think I'm actually anywhere near being too low, it does make me nervous.
I should just be happy I don't have to worry about gaining weight (RIGHT NOW), but mostly I'm just tired of worrying about weight. It never stops, does it? Even when you've been healthy for years. I would just throw away our scale, but there's that niggling fear of WHAT IF IT SPIRALS OUT OF CONTROL and also won't I need it for babies?
...okay, so I should probably just throw it away.
I'm nervous, but I'll be fine. It's also a DITL day, which I think will help to remind me to get all the detail shots. :) I'm looking through my old fave wedding blogs, too, since it feels like forever that I had my head in the wedding biz. God, and I remember being so into it, too. All the details and the cake and the excitement. It's probably good I moved on.
The wedding also reminded me that I needed to get my butt in gear re: our own legalness. I finally contacted a MN judge yesterday and not only is she up for solemnizing, but she plays in an LGBT orchestra. *swoon* Hoorah! I had no idea because the list of MN judges has no extra info, so it was all luck. Now I am getting a little excited about actually getting married. Maybe I should have waited to dye my dress? ...nah.
Diet-wise, I'm still mostly strict AIP. Yolks didn't work out, so I'm onto seed spices next. I had a coconut chai yesterday morning, then a burger with cumin and mustard. I might have died a little when I had the mustard - it's so flavorful. Holy shit. Mustard is the food of the gods. I never knew. I will never doubt or underestimate mustard again.
So far, no problems with seed spices. So they're def not an acute thing, like the yolks were. They still could be cumulative, so I'll hold off on judgment until next Friday. Still: excited! Mustard!!!
Other AIP-ness: still losing weight. Slowly, but it's happening. I knew the first few pounds would be water bloat from all the sugar over Christmas. But now it's worrying me, since I feel like I'm eating enough and it's definitely not intentional. At the same time, I have to fight the mental knee jerk reaction that this a good thing, it's always good to lose weight, right? I don't think I'll ever be rid of that. But no, it's not. I need a certain percentage of fat to make enough estrogen and be healthy. While I don't think I'm actually anywhere near being too low, it does make me nervous.
I should just be happy I don't have to worry about gaining weight (RIGHT NOW), but mostly I'm just tired of worrying about weight. It never stops, does it? Even when you've been healthy for years. I would just throw away our scale, but there's that niggling fear of WHAT IF IT SPIRALS OUT OF CONTROL and also won't I need it for babies?
...okay, so I should probably just throw it away.
