spryng: (dork)
The weather for the past few days - even the past week - has been phenomenal. Amazing how a few clear skies can really make the winter seem as if it's receding. I really took Florida winters for granted. Cloudy skies and cold and nice on occasion, but I like me some good ol' radiation.

Needless to say, my mood has improved quite a bit from the last post. I still get nauseous whenever I think about grad school, but work isn't too bad and I've got some new plans in the works. I got a raise, albeit a little one considering how many responsibilities I've taken on since starting, and I've gotten near pleadings not to leave even if I do get into grad school. Boss-lady let me know that I could even go part time. And she mulled about my possible future in title today, as well. Not that I have to worry about the need for this kind of business going away anytime soon, anyway. I really have awesome timing sometimes. Still, lady not having a job is depressing for both of us, even if we should just be happy one of us does have a job in this stupid economy.

As for my plans, well, that would be me taking advantage of the part time. This would have to be after lady gets a job. Since she'll automatically be making more than me, I would be fully comfortable hacking my hours in half and devoting the rest of my time to writing. I've found that trying to write with a full time job is hard - I'm so tired when I come home and the weekends are eaten up by errands and much-needed down time. I can do it, it's just slow going. Maybe by then I'll have one of these edits done and I can focus on a finished product. The idea of it thrills me.

Other things that have perked up my mood recently were our anniversary and a trip to the doctor about these headaches and being able to drink coffee again and delicious, delicious cupcakes. Going to the doctor has put a lot of the little anxious voices in the back of my head to rest. I did faint when they drew blood and ended up having to take the whole day off from work instead of the morning, but now I know there's nothing seriously wrong with me. A little low on the iron, apparently, but I'm not going to randomly keel over dead. Stupid anxiety. But I haven't had an attack since beginning of January and I had coffee the last few days and had neither palpitations nor attacks. It was glorious. I won't be drinking coffee every morning again for a while, yet, but at least I don't have to start worrying about the effects of caffeine before I even start drinking it. And cupcakes! Oh, how we've feasted upon cupcakes these past few weekends. I might have to try my hand at delicious-ness this coming weekend...

So things are all right. The economy sucks balls and I won't be getting into grad school, but things could be oh so much worse.
spryng: (daleks)
Working on my application - can someone tell me what a credit is again? Is it how many hours a class is a week? I'm never sure. Oh NCF and your lack of grades and credits. I love you, but man, it feels a little odd leaving GPA and whatnot blank.

The anxiety is getting kind of out of hand. I've started using the elliptical, though, even if it is shitty and loud. Exercise is good. But I still can't wait for January and it's promise of insurance. I'm starting to consider drugs, because really, it's been a year and a half and it's still here. Sometimes worse, sometimes better, but still here.

Back to the application - those of you who took Medieval Latin with me - do you remember what texts we translated? There's this awesome part of the app where I get to fill it out with everything I've read in Latin and I'd like to include those, if I can, but I haven't got the papers anymore. ;.;

Mm, the year is ending and it's getting to be that introspective, looking back on things time. A number of people have posted that recurring meme of taking the first line from the first post of each month. I looked back to see if that would actually show how the year went and was surprised at just how little I've been posting this year. On average of four or five posts a month, as opposed to the days when I'd post nearly every day... man.

Lj-cut for your benefit. )

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